Patience is not one of my virtues. I am more of a 'I want it all, and I want it now' type of woman.
As someone, who has been around for a while, and has had a complete reign over her own life for many years, I might be perceived as a slightly inflexible and highly opinionated. And, I really wouldn't mind, as it is probably the correct description of 'Moi'.
Even though I practise patience quite successfully in my current role as an elite paid companion/ escort (in fact I often, even surprise my-own-self), I still at times get irritated by certain people and situations. Aiming to avoid such bearings is always on my agenda, but if it's good manners or a purely selfish act, remains highly debatable.
There is no secret, I started this blog to simply entertain myself. What else I've found out, is that it can work tremendously well for attracting the right gentleman or exterminating the 'non-suitors'.
By writing about who I am, what my interests are, and what completely displeases me, I live in high hopes , all those 'non-suitors', to clearly see I am NOT exactly, the Blonde Busty Bimbo Doll with a added menu of sexually services, they are looking for, and therefore never to contact me and waste my energy. I am all about quality, not quantity.
If they can just call me an Arrogant B**** or W**** , and move on, I would be proud of a 'job well done'.
My prejudice has nothing to do with looks,race or class, but rather bad behaviour, manners and generalisation.
I know the society's views on women like me. I know how hypothesising, based on 'myths' or previous experiences, is the easiest thing to do. I also understand, to an extend, why some men act the way they do, and attempt to disrespect women in this profession.
My understanding, however, is not to be mistaken for acceptance.
I feel very much entitle of reserving my own right to be selective about whom I would like to spend intimate time with. Just because I have made the choice of earning money by providing intimacy, doesn't mean that choice diminishes my rights of enjoyment and safety.
One of my regular clients recently told me how much he loves my blog, but how he thinks , I might be overdoing it a little, and ultimately chasing people away. He said that I come across much more 'stiff' than I actually am, and 'my point' often can be interpreted as arrogant by the stranger, who do not know my character.
My answer was- 'Well, that's perfect. If someone can't read between the lines, he is probably not the person I would enjoy spending time with anyway'
He, of coarse, laughed out loud, as he knows me far too well.
What I would like to clarify (just in case someone cares), is that even if this blog, in way, acts as "honey to the bees", or a "poisonous cockroach repellent", which I, by the way, tremendously enjoy, I actually write it because of Me and my emotions.
No aim to feed some Marketing needs or search for Anybody's approval. I am not a writer and not trying to proclaim importance or writing skills, this blog is a completely selfish hobby.
I have a lot of free time these days, which I am not use to having. Trying to utilise it well, with everything that interests me or pleases me is the only logical option available to me, and I will not apologise for it.
This blog makes me happy and gives me peace, it's no different to me, than a walk in the park, session at the gym, listening to Vivaldi, seeing a show or reading a book.
It's almost like a pleasant conversation with a very good friend, only better, as it is done in the comfort of my own bed, sitting in my pyjamas with messy hair and coffee in hand.
I write about my inner battles,thoughts of the day, experiences and dreams. I often search for answers to my questions and duel on my emotions. What I write is real, and if it happens that someone reads it- Great!
If someone enjoys it, gets inspired or learns something new about the escort profession or the woman behind the Companion Nicole...Now, that just a wonderful bonus.
Placing a smile on someone's face, even if it's just one person a day is something worth writing for. And since I always smile when I write, it kind of serves it's purpose.
Do what makes you happy....and don't forget to smile!